April 3rd, 2005

egh..

okay so time for an update.
me and Ryan broke up. for all of those who don't know who he is, he's the guy i've been dating almost a year.
omg this kills me.
i really really really love him, but no one seems to understand that.
so now i'm dating Anthony Willard. he's so sweet and funny but everytime i look at him i begin to compare him to Ryan. it sucks. i find myself saying shit like "he'll never be a Ryan". it just drives me crazy.
i'm in love with Ryan and i duno what to do. i fucked up yet once again.
Ryan wants to work things out but i'm tired of fighting his best friend for my boyfriend. i just can't cry myself to sleep everynight because he wants to hang out with his best friend. i can't do it.
i duno what to do?. someone help.


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